It’s coming towards the end of the year again (already?) and so I delve into the ‘what am I doing’ scenarios again.
Update from last years WDIWTDWML* question.
I STILL DON’T KNOW.
I have a year and a half left of university, which, if going by this semester is going to fly by, and then I will be done.
What do I do then?
I will not move back to Norfolk. Don’t get me wrong I love the place, but I can’t live there.
Even when I go back for a few days it feels like I am hitting my head against a brick wall. Walking through Walsham, whilst greatly entertaining, reminds me what I do not want to end up doing.
When I was a little, I wanted to be lots of things. Like a Vet, until I realised that I was awful at Science. Then I discovered I was ok at drama, and that took over my life for most of my teenage years. I knew exactly what I wanted to do, I was going to become the Norfolk version of Kerry Ellis, and randomly get discovered by Brian May, who would right a part in a musical specifically for me. Done. Thank you very much, see you on Broadway!
Until I went to Uni1- and discovered that I hated it. Loosing my voice and not getting into RWCMD didn’t help, but I detested London Met. Too much of “this spoon represents your life, create a dance peace that represents this spoon” type of drama. It was always fun watching other people take it so seriously though.
SO I had a gap year, stayed in London with my best friend, in the worst flat in the world. I worked Front Of House for Delfont Mackintosh, and after spending far too much time inside these amazing buildings decided that I could be a theatre manager. So I went through the UCAS system again, this time looking for Arts Management courses, and ended up getting into London Southbank University, which is where I am still at today.
But the issue is that I am now bored of that too. Sure I love theatre and I know I will probably end up working in it in some way, shape or form, but it’s not what I want to do, Its just what I CAN do.
So the next few months are basically going to be me searching for something to do.
Anything to do.
Wow, it’s like I’m looking for my calling.
How self centered is that?
Well, it is my blog, if I am going to be self centered it’s ok if it’s here.
*WDIWTDWMY = what do I want to do with my life?